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A New Home

2011-12-25T16:52:00.000-08:00

I finally moved!

Guys, my personal blog is up, http://paje20.page.ph/.

You may follow me on that site, as I might not be able to update this blog anymore.

Thank you for the support (wtf?! haha..)

See you on my new home :)

First Pictures

2011-12-10T19:02:00.000-08:00

A Baby Boy!

2011-12-09T00:51:00.001-08:00

I haven't been able to post in quite a while. I have been busy with work, especially now that we have been deployed in Operations for almost 2 weeks.

To start off, we were able to accomplish the Congenital Anomaly Scan for baby Gabe. The said scan aims to look for any abnormalities during the baby's development, and at the same time, provide corrective measures or actions if still possible.

And so, we had it done in Borough Medical. Eversince, we have been aware of how slow their service is. However, we were left with no better alternative as it was a Saturday and there was a shortage of OB-Sonologist on duty. The cost was also higher than we prepared for, as we estimated only P900 (New World Clinic). We called in advance to check if there was going to be an OB-Sono on duty that day and were told that she was going to be on duty at 1pm - 3pm.

We got there at around past 12, and I think it was even almost 1pm. I immediately asked how many patients were waiting for the OB-Sono so that I could estimate the time we are to wait. The receptionist told me that I was the first one to be there, so we waited. And waited. And waited. The wait took 4 and a half hours of our time, with the receptionist explaining everytime that the doctor was on her way. Imagine, kung emergency yung reason for my being there, baka wala na ako, or sobrang naisugod na ako sa ibang hospital. Knowing that we already spent that much time, we just had to be patient.

The doctor arrived and had whatever equipment ready. Finally, we were ushered into one of the ultrasound rooms, and the procedure began. She began by telling us the measurement of the organs, head, heart, spine, major veins, as well as the visibility of the organs, kidneys, lungs, bladder, stomach. Then she showed us the face and the gender. At this point, I am so happy to share that baby Gabe is a BOY!!

All the wait was worth it. All the disappointments, frustration about the time, yung pagka-asar namin sa OB-Sono, and sa staff. Lahat un, lumipad sa kawalan. Literal na tears of joy. And did I mention na lutang kami ni Jeff sa kaligayahan about the news? We excitedly shared the news to our families, and they were also happy to hear about it. I would like to post the pictures now, kaya lang, I am currently in the office, walang powers to upload pictures.

I still have a lot of news to share. Maybe I will post the pictures later, when we get home. And then I will post another batch of stories. Some are of the happy nature, and some are not. But hey, who said life is always happy?

Another Reason to Celebrate

2011-11-17T22:18:00.000-08:00

The list just keeps getting better! First, I was able to get a job despite my being pregnant. Second, my babe was promoted to level 2 before he even signed his regularization contract. To add another, I passed my IELTS exam! Tomorrow, we will be able to see Gabe for the first time via 2d ultrasound. We wil have him checked for any congenital anomalies and have his gender checked. Let's all hope for more good news. :)

Congratulations!

2011-11-16T06:59:00.000-08:00

I am so proud of my babe right now. He has not signed any confirmation for the regularization of his contract, and yet, he is already promoted. Here is the email proving his skills and Gabe being our lucky charm. I am sensing wonderful things ahead of us. :)

Congratulations to our new Level 2 Agents!

In light of this momentous event, please be advised that these kind-hearted individuals are at your disposal. As much as possible, please direct all of your queries to them and they will be more than happy to serve you and provide you with answers.

Let us wish them well in their new roles

Last First

Perez Jefferson

Dela Paz Christian

Ramos Dennis

Rosales Mary Anne

Firme Nathaniel Bryan

Martinez Francis

Berueda Gerard Anthony

Fidel Edward

Chillax Sunday

2011-11-13T00:27:00.001-08:00

Went to the pre climb meeting of Piknikers last night. Kakainggit, meron silang Mt. Daguldol traverse habang iwan ako sa bahay :( oh well..

Anyway, today is a Sunday, and all babe and I did was to chill. We got up at around 11am, ate brunch, waited for Pacman's fight and decided to ditch it with so many spoilers in FB. Ok, so Pacman won, big deal :)

At the moment, we are watching "The Cat", a Korean horror film with babe ditching out a lot of parts (haha!).. More updates in a little while :)

Updates and Realizations

2011-11-10T01:54:00.000-08:00

Just a few updates after the last post I had.. I was able to accomplish the remaining exams for IELTS. It was held at the Crown Plaza Hotel in Ortigas. Hopefully, everything will go well. The scores will be posted on the !8th of November.

After the exam, I met with my baby hubby in Galleria. We went for a quick stroll and looked at some baby strollers. We were so impressed with the attending salesman for Baby First. I think his name is Joselito. One thing is for sure, babalikan namen ung stroller na un. The price was very reasonable and it was already a set - car seat and stroller in one.

We then set off to Fairview. We visited Kuya's grave. Kuya, btw is babe's deceased nephew, and his real name is Denzel Gabriel. We met ate along the way, shared stories when we got there, and ate merienda back in ate's house. Babe cooked spaghetti and it tasted good. Ate also served ung favorite kong bico, with the sweet sauce that I am not sure what it was called. We slept afterwards (parang baboy lang.. haha!)

Sunday, babe was in the mood for cooking. He cooked me beef sinigang which was absolutely scrumptious.. er.. delicious na lang.. hehe! We chilled all day long, and the day after because it was also my first day in the graveyard shift.

Speaking of shifts, I am starting to feel Gabe more. Maybe because he hates my shift, or sa madaling araw lang talaga cia naglilikot, I am not sure. I just have to make it a point to rest when needed and that i drink plenty of water, and eat when I am hungry (which is lagi na lang :)). We are currently on the client specific training. Our trainer told us that training will last for 3 weeks. So far, the environment is pretty relaxed, to the point of boredom, but overall well.

I also applied for site sponsorship with page.ph and I got approved. So far, I am at the start of the process. Good thing, I have friends who have sense when it comes to blogging. :)

I am hoping to add more entries in the coming days. I need to sleep pa muna ulit. :)

One Down, Three To Go

2011-11-03T01:36:00.000-07:00

Just finished my speaking test today. Hopefully everything will go well. My interviewer was Malcolm Gamet, and I think he is British. The rest of the exams will be on Saturday. We can do this, Baby Gabe!! Yosh! :)

A Wiggle From Within

2011-11-02T04:13:00.000-07:00

I finally felt baby Gabe move!

This is one milestone that i will forever remember. The date is November 1, 2011. This came a surprise as I was having a rough day at work. Baby Gabe must have felt that and gave mommy reassurance that everything will be alright. Guess what, it worked. The feeling was so pleasant, I can't think of any adjectives to describe it.

I am now looking forward to every movement our precious darling will make. I am pretty sure daddy is too. :)

Examination Day

2011-10-31T04:17:00.000-07:00

When I had the interview for Siemens (an ATOS company), I was told that the batch I will be in will be deployed to the Towers Watson account. One of the requirements that they need is for the employees be IELTS certified.

IELTS stand for International English Language Testing System. Simply put, it measures ability of one person to converse, understand, and use the English language. The organization who manages it are the standard when it comes to measuring the how effective we are when using the language. IELTS also is a requirement when migrating abroad, either for academic or residential purposes. It comprises of 4 exams, namely, Listening, Reading, Writing, and Speaking.

And so, our batch is on our 2nd week. I am to take the speaking test on Thursday, the 3rd of November on the British Consulate, and the rest of the written exams on Saturday. Given the scores that I got from our written test exercises, I am kind of anxious as to how it will turn out on Saturday. I also need to make sure that I don't blank out on Thursday during the speaking exam.

Wish me luck. I know baby Gabe is adding more luck on my side. This is another step, and as Maya always say, failure is not an option. :)

Unemployed - Not!

2011-10-06T07:26:00.000-07:00

So I wrote about resigning and quitting my job. True, and it has been almost three weeks now that I am without a job.

Realizing that we won't be making the savings that we planned for with just babe's salary. The best solution - me, getting a job, ASAP.

I hitched a ride with babe one day and decided to pass my resume to his office. I figured, if I don't get in, I could still let my resume circulate until I get something. Due to favorable circumstances and the strength of my memory (haha!), I was able to pass the test, the language assessment, and the technical interview.

So there, I was given the list of requirements that I have to accomplish before the actual job offer. The HR personnel said that the actual account is to start by the 17th, which is not that long from today.

Yay for me, yay for the support babe has provided me ever since, and yay for baby Gabe for being our lucky charm. :)

Pics From Climbs

2011-10-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

Gulugod Baboy - May 13 - 14, 2011

Mt. Cristobal Traverse - May 28, 2011

Mt. Ugo Traverse - June 24 - 26, 2011

Baby Gabe

2011-10-05T07:48:00.000-07:00

A few months back, we found out that I was pregnant. An unexpected surprise as we were not planning on having any babies yet due to our financial standing. However, things happened, and here we are, with our little baby at 17 weeks.

Finding a good OB is not that easy. Well, technically, it should be as our current OB was referred to us by Jeff's ate. Somehow, we always had reasons to put it off, until finally, we got to meet her last week. I was given tips on how to get up from a lying position, gave me a better baby book, and had us hear baby gabe's heartbeat :)

I will be posting pictures as soon as it is available. Dr. Cecil mentioned that she will be recommending the ultrasound for gender and etc on my 7th month. (tipid no? haha!). By then, I might be as big as a whale. Oh, and did I mention that we are planning on naming our baby Gabriel Skye? :)

Mrs. Jefferson Perez

2011-10-04T05:06:00.000-07:00

New beginnings indeed.

September 18, 2011 - The day started out normal as it is. Breakfast in the morning, the usual rush to the bathroom, preparation of things, feeding our babies. What a day it was. :)

We first drove to Iko's to fetch our cake. This is the second visit to the said place and guess what? We got lost - again. Luckily, we made good time, with the day being Sunday. As we were nearing the place where our wedding is to take place, we remembered something important. We forgot our marriage license!

So there, we had to quickly drop off the goodies as Ate and company arrived to pretty up the place. We explained what happened, they understood, and we left in a hurry to get the documents. We also realized that we forgot the bible, his socks, and that i have yet to fix my hair.

While i was having my hair done, he went home to get the things we needed. I had to do my make up and dress while in the car. Good thing I am sooo resourceful (haha!). We got there a few minutes after 3PM, whereas the time we set was 3PM sharp. Talk about being late. But hey, it is OUR wedding day :)

A quick rundown of events, my mom and brother were late. The reverend was in a hurry, literally. Kelangan pang habulin ni babe ung sinasabi nya para ulitin ung vows whatever. To make the long story short, it was not the solemn wedding that everyone was expecting. It turned out to be a comic wedding after all.

And so, we are husband and wife, vowed to love each other forever, not letting anyone come between us, with our parents, friends, and loved ones to witness our special day. :)

New Beginnings

2011-09-02T14:55:00.000-07:00

As the title goes, a lot of new beginnings are bound to happen to me in a span of a few weeks. It is both happy and sad, and some might say worrisome, and a not so wise move.

This month will be the end of a 7 year employment to what I call my first home. I have come to the point wherein the people around me is not enough to compensate for the things I find faulty. They have been my second family, as I have spent most of my time with them. Heck, I even spent more of my time with them than with my family and friends outside my work. Bittersweet memories indeed.

This month will also be the start of my new life. Ending my employment is such a bold move, given my condition and I would be honest to say that there were a lot of times when I wanted to take back my paper and wait for baby Gabe to come out before leaving my post. Of course, there should be no turning back, what's done is done. As terrifying it may seem leaving my comfort zone, I need to get back on my feet and do something different. A new job will be a part of my new life.

Another new will be my status (yay!). In a matter of a week or two, I am bound (?) to marry my best friend, my confidante, my soon to be ex-boyfriend, and the future dad of my soon to be kids. Life is exciting indeed.

I am thinking of writing something commemorative, something to remember my friends, the management, my previous bosses, my old company (with pictures, of course), just so to remember them by. Maybe I'll start during my vacation, after the wedding, and while I am looking for new employment. :)

All I Need

2011-09-01T18:41:00.001-07:00

Just thought of a song. :)

Kissing you was not what I had planned
And now I'm not so sure just where I stand
I wasn't looking for true love
But now you're looking at me
You're the only one I can think of
You're the only one I see

*All I need is just a little more time
To be sure what I feel
Is it all in my mind?
'Cause it seems so hard to believe that you're all I need

I guess it's true we've all been hurt before
But it doesn't seem to matter anymore
It's maybe a chance we're taking
But it always comes to this
If this isn't love we're making
Then I don't know what it is

No stars are out to night
But we're shining our own light
And it's never felt so right
'Cause the way I'm feeling
It's easy to believe?
That you're all I need

Happy birthday to my future!

2011-08-28T20:03:00.001-07:00

My babe refused to age. Well, "refused" may be too harsh a word, and I could probably use the word "reluctant" instead.

My babe is reluctant to celebrate this day as he is not too fond of adding a year to his age. There. That sounds better.

Let me share a few things about him. At least those that I know and I am aware of. :)

1. Doesn't snore.

2. Loves to sleep.

3. Patient - at least when he tries to wake me up.

4. Strict - I was only able to see this side of him when he dealt with my babies and Riza's kids.

5. Conscious - he always wait for recognition, regardless of what it is. May it be cooking, something handy that he assembled, whatever. You have to let him hear the positive of it.

6. Vain - this is something recent. He is too aware of how his body looks like. He is no longer overweight, yet he constantly bugs me that he has a big stomach. Babe, you don't, and if you do, i'll always love you for that. Real men don't need abs, right?

7. Loves to read. I am pertaining to forum articles, posts from the web, gadget blogs and the like. He recently took up the interest in reading "percy jackson" books. I am so glad that somehow I was part of what influenced him to read more.

8. Video game fanatic - he tells me that he "was", but it seems that it is coming back, but with more moderation. That's ok. At least it's not something that will cost us more than what we have. :)

9. Loving, generous, trustworthy - this i don't need to explain further.

10. I LOVE HIM.

I could think of a million other things to describe him, or to mention a lot of other things that could be considered as "him", however, I might run out of words and time to say whatever needs to be said.

Again, happy birthday love!

Sugarcoated Asshole

2011-08-21T19:25:00.001-07:00

There are just some days when you would wish some people dead. I am generally a nice person but I can't help but wish anything nice to a certain person.

Magtatambak ng trabaho, expecting the figures to be nice, last minute changes, looking at everything you do and searches for error. No feedback from the account, mangapa ka na lang kung ano na ung feedback ng management ng account na hawak mo. No appreciation at all. Ungrateful indeed.

Ok lang. Konting tiis na lang.

Ang alam ko, hindi nagtatagal mga ganyang tao sa company. Ewan lang. Bahala na.

Bad Trip Lang - Epekto ng Double Shift

2011-08-12T03:27:00.001-07:00

Bakit ganon?

Even though it has been a long time, feeling ko, overshadowed pa rin ako ng ex nya? Tipong lahat lahat ng best things about him, pinakita sa kanya, from magandang pakikitungo to being "liked" by his family. Bakit parang nakukulangan ako? Hormones? Ewan lang din.

Ayaw ko magsalita. Kase ayaw ko ng namimilit. Kase ayaw ko ng nage-explain ako ng sarili ko. Kase ayaw ko na pag nag explain ako, me makitang butas, sakin bumalik. Ayaw ko na pagbalik sakin (loophole), ako pa yung lalabas na masama. Ayaw ko ng feeling na ang tanga tanga ko. Ayaw ko ng feeling na kinakaawaan and napipilitan lang ang lahat.
I am supposed to be happy pero dahil dun sa past nya, parang ako yung sumasalo ng lahat. Feeling ko paranoid lang ako kase ewan. Basta. Parang may kulang.
Masyado ba ako accomodating? Masyado ba akong ok lang sa lahat? Again, loop of events. Babalikan ko ung scenario na ayaw ko mamilit, ayaw ko ng kahit anong sapilitan. Pag ayaw, ayaw, pag gusto, gusto.

Ibahin ko yung statement. I am happy. Pero kulang. Parang nagtatago kame. Parang tinatago ako. Parang hindi "proud" pagdating saken. Aaaaaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!! Gusto ko umiyak, gusto ko magwala. Gusto ko na umuwi. Gusto ko matulog, magkulong sa kwarto, mag-isa. Tipong dun lang ako. Titig sa kawalan. Hilata lang. Walang gagawin na kahit ano. Ever. Walang makikita or pagpapakitaan na tao.

Feeling ko, naaaawa ako sa sarili ko. Feeling ko mag isa ako kahit na lagi ako may assurance na di ako mag isa (technically speaking, di na ako mag isa. Kasama ko si gabe). Parang di normal tong nararamdaman ko. Basta ang lungkot ko. Tanga kase ako kung ano ano pa ung hinalungkat ko. Ako tuloy ung nahihirapan at nagkakaron ng insecurities sa buhay. Anlaki kase ng difference.

Ayaw kong umiyak sa harap ng hubby ko. Ang pathetic kase. Ayaw ko na din magtanong ng magtanong kase kahit anong clarify ang gawin nya, tamang duda pa din ako. Bakit ganon? Bakit ganon? Bakit ganon? I assume normal lang magselos. Mahal ko yun eh. Meron lang talagang malaking part yung lecheng ex na parang ako yung taga salo ng lahat ng negative na ginawa nya. Parang feeling ko tuloy, tamang duda yung family nya saken. Plus dumating pa c gabe.. Haay..

Ayaw ko na magisip. Baka epekto lang to ng matagal na pag stay sa opisina. Parang masaya umuwi ng LP magisa, kaya lang, tamang duda c mama. As usual, wala naman nakakalagpas dun. Chaka panay pa naman ang build up ko na masaya ako at sobrang loved ako. AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH ulit!!!!!!

Bottom line, wala akong karapatan magkaganito. Kelangan lang lumabas sa dibdib ko. Under normal circumstances at condition, yosi lang katapat nito. Pero di na pwede. Wawa naman c gabe kung gagawin ko yun. Bad trip talaga.

update

2011-08-09T13:59:00.001-07:00

and so my mom finally knew. I told her through a very impersonal means, which is through sms. I know. I am so bad for doing so, kaya lang, the blow has to be soften. And so, i think it worked out. I am to call her later.

I would have to text my dad of course and update our mountaineering friends. So much to do, so little time. My love's assignment is to tell his mom and dad, and at the same time, schedule his sisters for a visit on our LP home.

We also need to contact one of his best buddies about the wedding. We were kinda budgeting how much we would need. One thing is for sure though, we will not ask anyone for any financial help.

On the plus side, I am to have my routine pregnancy tests on Saturday, which means we might miss Joy and Delfin's wedding in Mindoro. So sad. In addition, we are slowly managing our finances which will mean, more will come in to savings soon.

I will post another update when possible. For now, we will take it one step at a time.

:)

2011-08-07T23:58:00.001-07:00

8 going on 9 weeks and counting.

ilang tulog na lang, wedding na :)

anticipating

2011-07-25T14:48:00.001-07:00

And so it is positive.. worried, somewhat nervous, but happy at the same time.

All plans bumped to an earlier date than the usual, but hey, who am I to complain?

Day 61

2011-07-17T18:26:00.001-07:00

To the person who I love the most right now, here are some of the things that I am thankful for:

You had the courage to let me know how you feel.
You embraced all my faults and imperfections and treated them as your own.
You stood by me and encouraged me to change for the better
You make me laugh and cheer me up whenever I am down. You continously do so even without any need to.
You hold my hands all the time.
You never tire of letting me know how much you love me too.
You stood up for all that I believe in, and it is such a blessing that we believe the same things.
You always appreciate what I cook for you.
For the plans that you made for us, including the future that we both envision to have.
For appreciating the continous discussion about budgets, even if there is nothing to left to compute.
For introducing me to your family and friends, and letting me talk to your mom.
For sticking by me through thick or thin.
For being the best boyfriend and soon to be my better half.

I love you babe. Happy monthsary!

Burot Beach Getaway

2011-06-04T19:47:00.000-07:00

My first out of town holy week was spent with my Piknikers family. Since i am working in a call center, I do not have the luxury of having long weekends. Having said this, I was only able to go after my Friday shift and meet with Lani and Jaybie so that the three of us can join the rest of the gang in Burot, Calatagan.

Our meeting place was supposedly in Mcdonalds, near the MRT - Taft station. Not being that familiar with the place, I ended up going to the branch near the LRT - Taft station, with the same landmarks as the latter.

After clearing matters up, we all were able to meet each other and boarded a bus going to Lian, Batangas. I was asleep most of the time during the trip. I have my bag full of clothes, necessities, and food. I also ended buying additonal supplies when we got to the town proper, including water, ice cream, and bananas.

I can say, swerte na din. We got away with the sizzling hot and humid climate on the beach, kase nga, we were still travelling, plus the food that I brought along helped so much as the gang were too hungry when we got there.

Kainan mode muna with Shai, Bampi, Chun li, and Lani:

Girls' group shot nung hapon:

And night finally came:

Ton cooked fried pork chops. Based on the holy week tradition dito sa Pilipinas, bawal kumain ng pork or beef during Good Friday at Black Saturday. As there were no other food available, no choice. Nabusog ako sa food, and hindi naman cguro ikagagalit ni Lord kung di ko natupad ung hindi pagkain ng pork.

Nagkaron din ng "aswang" scare that night. Shai and Bri brought some friends along and they were firm believers of the said folklore. Having 2 pregnant women in the group, naisip ko, baka totoo, pero after thinking about it for some time, I decided, di na lang ako maniniwala :)

The next day, it was time to enjoy the water. Beach mode activated!

Lunch time, dami daming cookset.. :)

Tambay mode:

Sobrang init, pahangin muna sa lilim.. Chillax mode:

A few group shots before we leave and get back to reality:

To sum it up, i enjoyed the vacation. It helped me detoxify and cleanse whatever stress I was on. I still believe that you don't need to be with someone to be happy, but it sure would make a hell lot of a difference if you have someone loving you in return. Til my next vacation :)

Music time out: Wonderful

2011-06-01T15:58:00.001-07:00

Hopeful and cynical at the same time. I feel the same sometimes, bottom line, always look at the better brighter side of things. Everything happens for a reason, and it is important to make the most out of everything. Who knows, everything might turn out wonderful in the end.

Effect of being in a state of bliss, of contentment, daming naiisip, daming words (haha!). I love you Jefferson Perez!

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

Mt. Timbak

2011-06-01T02:40:00.000-07:00

Last February, i was told that there was a climb that was a must to go to. Funny thing was, i may have been asleep when they were discussing the details as I was not aware that it was set on the following weekend, giving me only a few days to prepare. :)

And so the day came, Sir Karl lent me his thermal sleeping bag, tent, and gloves. A lot of briefing went on, what to expect, who I was with, and such. The destination: Mt. Timbak in Benguet.

A shot on our way to Baguio:

A few misfortunes along the way. First was since I was on "nabigla" mode, i didn't have that much. I only had a few hundreds in excess of the supposed fee that I was to pay for. If you are on a far off place, it is a no-no not to have extra cash. :)

Second, given the bulk of our bags, everything was placed on the compartment area of the bus. When we reached Baguio, i found out that my bag was soaked with water, including my jacket. :( So sad talaga. Sabi nga ni Ton, it is always important to waterproof your things. You'll never know what to expect kase.

Stop over for lunch:

And so, after a few hours of travel, miles of roads, dozens of kwento/ chicka with chunli from the back of the van, we arrived in Timbak Elementary School.

This trip by the way, was spearheaded by the Sykes Outdoor Group. They were gracious enough to host the said climb with the sole purpose of providing school supplies to the school. The school consist of 2 rooms, and a separate bath, with a spectacular view of some parts of Benguet. It was chilly enough even at 3PM. I bet you'll never guess kung gano kalamig pagsapit ng dilim (haha!)

Almost touching the clouds:

Twilight. Sea of clouds. Amazing!

Sunrise:

We ate dinner, bongga kase it was pork sinigang. Let me tell you, i tasted Sir Jay-z's sinigang in during our beach tambay in Green Island and it was the best. Literally na "sabaw pa lang, ulam na". Ayan, ginutom na ako..

A view from the summit, the cross, the landscape, and the breath taking beauty of the sky and clouds:

After appreciating the beauty of nature, we went back to the elementary school to have a late lunch, a few words of reminders from the organizers, and to learn of the plan right after.

Due to cold weather, it is really not recommended to eat a san marino tuna paella as it has the tendency to not taste good. Either way, no choice, ginutom ako eh.. haha!

Pads, one of the organizers informed us of visiting the benguet mummies. And so, we started hiking once more. And oh, we met a local who agreed to let us ride. We went for the top load, of course!

And so we went to see the mummies:

Mejo malayong akyat baba and lakad but it was all worth it kung ganito ung view dba?

Pictures of some of the mummies:

Would you believe, some people go to lengths just to get a hold of these mummies? There are only a few left, and their resting place now has steel gates with padlocks on. We are speaking of their resting place on the sides of the mountain. Iba talaga nagagawa ng pera. :(

So after ng mummy viewing, same akyat baba ung ginawa namen. Oicture picture muna with Ton and Chun li - my new friend sa climb na to.

Mukhang wasted lang :)

Thank you Lord for all the wonderful creations.

For the chance of seeing them up close, even from a greater distance,

And getting to share it with friends who share the same interests.

Of being able to appreciate it more and more, even with hardships along the way.

And to friends, who will continue to support and guide, who in turn will be needing the same.

I may not have the same "bangis" as others, I am still thankful that I am strong enough to climb mountains, overcome their challenges, and still have the ability to FULLY appreciate such wonders.

I may not also tire of saying it always, I am a Pikniker, and a proud one at that. :)

One Fine Afternoon

2011-05-25T11:45:00.001-07:00

It's payday, and we were looking forward to our trip this coming saturday. The mountaineering group that I belong to organized a training climb in Mt. Cristobal. We will be doing the traverse, which would mean, that it is going to be a major climb. My baby's first major climb. My first without Sir Karl or Ton or Bampi around.

So we went out and ended up in The Fort to check R.O.X out. We were so excited to see the Deuter bags that they should have stocks with. Unfortunately, there are no shipments yet, and the bag that we wanted to see were so big, i might be able to fit inside.

We lucked out on the stove instead. The snow peak stoves were on sale, costing us 1K each. We bought 2 since I will be taking it back to jani. We lost his stove during the Gulugod Baboy trek and i am still feeling guilty about it.

We ate afterwards in TOSH. Trivia: Did you know that TOSH stands for The Old Spaghettu House? Wala lang. First time ko kase kumain dun and it was one of Jeff's favorites. Har har!

After realizing that we were both tired, sleepless, and that we are to come in at 8PM for our regular shift, we decided to go home. I got to sleep on the way back and he might have done the same too. So ngayon, parehong puyat and antok, but happy. First time ko ulit lumakad sa labas doing the HHWWPSSP thing.. hahahaha!

I am happy, and content. Sometimes thinking that there could be a catch and at the same time trusting that there isn't one. I have got to stop overthinking. After all, we have all the time in the world, and at the rate we are going, I really, really, and positively think that this will last.

BTW, he is scheduled to meet my mom the week after our Cristobal climb. Can't wait! :)

Makiling Traverse

2011-05-18T23:28:00.000-07:00

Last april, me and my group, the Piknikers went to Makiling and did a traverse dayhike. It was a fun, tiring, and fulfilling trip which would either make you give up or continue with the journey. I chose the latter and as Sir Pik mentioned, it was the emotional fulfillment that would matter most.

I again overcame my fear of fatigue in the middle of nowhere, tested my patience, and my group, no, more like my family were there to support and guide me all the way. Love you guys.

Here are some of the photos as i will be adding more later:

Group shot sa bus:

A signage on our way to peak 3, i think. this was before we took our lunch break:

Hm, matarik din pala ung ibang akyatan, kaya ko to.. YOSH!

What do you know, kaya naman pala..

Yay! made it, pero wasted na. :)

A view from Makiling,

And another.

With Bampy, together with Liriox and Lanie. Mejo makipot ung daan,

Pahinga lang sandali. Mga cuties ng piknikers. :)

Group shot. Single pa ako dito :)

Isa pa habang pahinga. I think this was after the palanggana..

Malapit na daw.. the never ending 45minutes to go..

After 10 million years, narating din namen ang Agila Base. But wait, there's more! Malayo pa pala yan.. Haha!

Finally, a store.. nakapagpahinga momentarily.. Again, malayo pa to sa place na pwede mag wash up.. Pero, nakangiti na ako :)

Mga taong putik.. In fairness, mukha lang pagod, pero mukha pa din malinis.. hehe! Or maybe because katabi ko c Tonton.. :)

It was such a fun climb. Gusto ko umulit, pero wag muna ke Makiling.. I will come back, cguro pag mas malakas na ako. :)

Proud to be in a group who really cares for you. Regardless of how difficult the road to success is.

And so, I finally said the words..

2011-05-18T18:51:00.001-07:00

Despite fear and doubt, i finally said it.

It has been a long time and this is the time I finally felt comfortable in telling someone that I love him.

Among the firsts:

First time that I will be able to celebrate a special occasion on a specific date - May 18.

I cried my fear out of previous experiences.

I was able to fully open my heart and got accepted as I am.

I feel secure with a simple touch on the back or a kiss on the hand.

I feel overwhelmed (and goosebumps sometimes) with a simple text message or a chat session.

I know this person. I love him. I am keeping a positive outlook. I am keeping my faith and putting my trust.

I am happy. The happiest I can remember.

happy :)

2011-05-16T18:18:00.001-07:00

it's been a long time since i felt this happy. can't wait for the day that you'll be fully healed. i have avoided the "L" word since, but somehow, i know i can confidently say it a hundred times over.

lift your head
baby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong
along the way
you'll get by with a smile
u can't win at everything but u can try
and baby u don't have to worry
coz there ain't no need to hurry
no one ever said that there's no easy way
and when they're closing all their doors
and they don't want u anymore
this sounds funny but i'll say it anyway
girl i'll stay
through the bad times
even if i have to fetch u everyday
you'll get by with a smile

u can never be too happy in this life
coz in a world where everybody hates
a happy ending story
it's a wonder love can make the world go round
but don't let it bring u down
and turn ur face into a frown
you'll get along with a little prayer and a song
lift your head
baby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong along the way
you'll get by with a smile
now it's time to kiss away
those tears goodbye

Senti Mode - How Can I Tell Her About You

2011-05-01T12:32:00.001-07:00

Wala lang, just felt the need to be on sentimental mode today. Maybe because i am currently listening to a playlist i created from a long time ago. Sad but true, the song tells a lot about what could have happened.

Lobo: How Can I Tell Her About You

She knows when I'm lonesome, she cried when I'm sad
She's up in the good times, she's down in the bad
Whenever I'm discouraged, she knows just what to do
But girl, she doesn't know about you

I can tell her my troubles, she makes them all seem right
I can make up excuses not to hold her at night
We can talk of tomorrow, I'll tell her things that I want to do
But girl, how can I tell her about you?

How can I tell her about you? Girl, please tell me what to do
Everything seems right whenever I'm with you
So girl, won't you tell me how to tell her about you?

How can I tell her I don't miss her whenever I'm away
How can I say it's you and I think of every single night and day
But when is it easy telling someone we're through
Ah girl, help me tell her about you

Thank You

2011-03-06T11:35:00.001-08:00

To the new friend that i gained,

Thank you in advance. You have no idea how happy i am with the thoughtfulness of the act. We may not know each other that long yet, still, meron agad akong gift. Ico-consider ko na to as an advanced gift for my birthday and christmas. Again, maraming maraming salamat. :D

YOSH!!!

heartbreaking story

2011-02-27T11:30:00.001-08:00

i know i haven't been able to blog about my recent trips, however, this one can't wait. i feel so bad about it, it breaks my heart.

we were on our way home (at least the guys i am with are) when a white kitten mee-yeowed at us. it was a cry of hunger, and i also hear it as a "take care of me" mee-yeow. he started following me, and as i stare back, i saw that he sat in the middle of the street. fearing that a passing vehicle run him over, i picked him up and placed him on the side of the street. as we continued walking, he started crying again, and i felt really bad because i have no food to give, with the feeling that i can't take him home with me.

i am writing with the hopes that someone with a good heart take him in, give him food to eat, at least find his family, or stumble upon sir karl's place, where there are other cats that he could mingle with, and give him food to eat.

i am torn with guilt and sadness. i really really wished i could take him in, or feed him at least. i hope i see him the next time i visit their place.

Mt. Arayat Dayhike

2011-02-06T06:51:00.000-08:00

i attended ton's baby's christening two saturdays ago. the idea of a dayhike came from this gathering where the original plan was to do an overnight swimming afterwards. well, the overnight swim was canceled but not the dayhike. so we went to pampanga but met at sir pik's house at around 12am that day. we arrived at nanay ruby's house at around 7am to eat breakfast and started our trek at around 8am.

about to register

on our way up

serious mode

the view from the summit: white rock (?)

the view from the summit: bitukang manok river (wala lang, narinig ko lang)

some pictures with the rest of the group

going back: me in action.. haha!

and so they say that hiking is not for the weak and faint hearted. this is true. i knew that from the first time i experienced the hardships of climbing a mountain. perserverance, discipline, respect and trust for others are some of the traits that one should have. ako, i still consider myself weak and faint hearted. a lot of times, i think of giving up, kaya lang lagi na lang, pumapasok ung realization kapag nasa gitna na ako. might as well enjoy the view on the way to the top. mahirap, madumi, and most of all, nakakakaba. kaya ba ng katawan ko, kinakaya naman. iba kasi ung satisfaction na mararamdaman kapag nandun na sa taas. magandang view, and most of all, ung luwag sa dibdib na tipong "shit, kaya ko pala!"

kaya ko to, i am so proud of myself - mantra ni babing :)

photos courtesy of mark estrella :)

Mt. Cinco Picos Traverse to Silanguin Cove to Green Island Beach Camp (Jan. 22-23, 2011)

2011-02-01T03:10:00.000-08:00

this is kind of a late post. here are the pictures that i stole from them on facebook.. hahaha!

from our cinco picos traverse to silanguin cove adventure trip. :)

breathtaking view from above

patunay :)

with bampy

sa talahib, with bampy again (on our way to silanguin cove)

one of our pahinga moments

good morning!

another shot with bampy

pagod and sunburnt moment

group 1 came number 1

first climb as an official pikniker - one proud babing :)

a lot of new friends, promises of new adventure, new places, new challenges. ewan na lang kung di ko pa makita si mr. right. for now, enjoy lang. ang mantra - "i am so proud of myself, rakenrol!"

from a proud pikniker,

babing

February Fun

2011-01-30T21:47:00.001-08:00

a long due vacation is coming up. i am excited as any person would be at the sound of the word "vacation".

i am not actually sure if i would be able to rest, i will be on leave for 9 days. here is the actual plan:

after work on friday, i am heading off to las pinas to celebrate part of the chinese new year and to see my family. mostly because i miss them, partly because i won't be seeing them for another 2 weeks.

the next day, saturday, i would have to leave in the early morning to meet up with the piknikers. we are off to mount arayat in pampanga for a day hike. according to the tentative IT, there will be swimming afterwards. what i plan to do is to take a different route and visit papa's place to say hi. afterwhich i will head back to the hotel that we will be staying in.

since the dayhike plus swim party will be an overnight event, i am expecting to be home on sunday, most probably in the afternoon. i should be able to pack the necessary things for the trip come the next day. will sleep early as our flight is early as well.

come monday, we leave for Palawan! yay! we leave at around 8am and should be there at around 10am. as far as i know, we will head directly to El nido. chillax for 5 days, baby, yeah!

after 5 days, we are now talking of saturday, there will be a mini reunion at vine's place. inuman, yosi, bonding session. fun, but not so looking forward to it. hm.

sunday will really be a rest day. and a laundry day, and ligpit day. whew, sana di na matapos ung week. haha!

monday, i am back to reality. back to work na ulit. as it seems, i am fully booked. i wish there is a job that will pay a lot and at the same time, not as strenuous as mine. i am not to complain, but one could be lazy sometimes. :)

point to ponder

2011-01-24T20:50:00.001-08:00

i have been watching this sitcom, and one of the episodes was about Ted. This episode was about him turning 30, and one of his plan was to discard everything that he does not have any use of. things, personal effects, friends, etc.

this got me thinking. what if i do the same, and remove those that i have no use of. any complications, trash, anything unnecessary. i bet i'll have more room to myself.

maybe i should start with one baggage. then everything else will follow.

Mt. Kalisungan day hike with piknikers :)

2011-01-17T03:15:00.001-08:00

i conquered another mountain and got a new set of friends. not bad for the start of the year.

last saturday, i joined a practice climb with karl, bampy, and ton. they are from the group called piknikers mountaineers and we went to mt. kalisungan in victoria, laguna. this is the second time that i joined them and hindi nga ako nagkamali the first time. very accomodating and maasikaso cla.

anyway, we all met at the hm bus station in cubao. kakaaliw kase i was expecting na mejo marami kame. practice climb kase sasama ulit ako sa kanila next week sa cinco picos. sabit lang ako dun actually, pero major climb daw un, and considering na sa daraitan yung huli kong adventure, mejo kailangan ko talaga ng parang warm up/ practice.

mentally, i was prepared. alam ko na mahirap cia. hindi ko lang inexpect na MAHIRAP PALA TALAGA. nandun ung nahilo ako sa mga unang oras na naglalakad kame, nandun din ung halos paunahin ko na si sir ton at pinipilit ko cia na susunod na lang ako (grabe, hindi cia nagpapilit, at hinintay nya ako kahit alam kong mas napapagod cia sa kakapahinga), at ung ilang beses ako nadulas. pisikal pala and stamina ung kalaban ko. kabado tuloy ako sa darating na sabado.

some of the catches of the trip is ung pagkakaligaw namen. nasundan namin ung trail kaya lang, habang lumalaon (naks! ang lalim!), mejo nawawala na cia. buti na lang maalam mga kasama ko, nakita naman din nila after mag bushwhack (yep, may literal meaning pala ang term na ito). dito din ako maraming natutunan, c/o tips nila sir ton, sir karl, at maam bampy. naexplain nga din maigi sakin ang catch phrase ng group na "never leave a man behind". simple pero mabigat ang meaning. at siempre, in-invite din nila ako sa group nila. first time ko ulit sumali sa group na di ko masyado kilala pero sa buong panahon na kasama ko cla at nila ako, di ko naramdaman na others ako.

sa piknikers, salamat sa adventure, sa pagalaga, sa guidance. looking forward sa mga climb na susunod. hopefully maging kasing bangis nyo din ako someday. :)

wala lang :)

2011-01-13T05:34:00.000-08:00

busy busy

2011-01-11T18:35:00.001-08:00

I have been busy lately, thus my lack of time in updating my blog. Here is what happened during the months/weeks/days that I was not able to write:

· met with my high school buddies

· got busy with my direct selling/load/sari sari business

· spent time looking for gift ideas for Christmas

· found out and got addicted to cityville, one of the newest games in facebook

· became concerned with our upcoming Palawan trip

· became more concerned with the upcoming quarterly business review of one of the accounts that i am handling

· got sick

· got super tired

· went on dates

· planned for the renovation of our house in las pinas

· got my new mountaineering bag (Hell yeah!)

Come to think of it, I already forgot some of my activities in the past. I know there were still a lot but somehow, I can't seem to think of any. hopefully, I will get to accomplish more of what I planned this year.

...

2011-01-07T04:09:00.001-08:00

i equate being nice for being always taken for granted. i hate being nice but i just can't help being one. :(

...

2010-11-09T15:02:00.001-08:00

I am overworked.

Tarot, anyone?

2010-10-31T02:02:00.001-07:00

Got a tarot reading last Friday. it was free courtesy of my company. was able to ask about my finances and love life. my finances should be fine, as long as i don't spend too much on little things. what really struck as amusing was the reading about meeting someone in December. that someone was to be a friend of a friend and will be meeting him at a party.. interesting, right?

in addition, i spent the night with a very special friend. i am thankful as he understands what i could only give him. hopefully, this would be the start of me finding what i really want.

stupid problem

2010-10-24T06:27:00.001-07:00

i am currently reading my posts since i first started my blog. surprisingly enough, may substance pala, kahit sobrang simple lang ng iba. from heartaches to excitement, to being expectant, at lahat lahat na. well wishes at curses kung kani-kanino, it did come a long way, even if hindi cia kumikita ng kaperahan.. haha!

on another note, what really prompted me to write is because i am worried. something is definitely wrong with me, and i am not liking it.

it has been 2 years since i have been on a relationship and somehow, i have grown accustomed to being alone. i depend on myself alone and i don't rely on someone else just to feel complete. true, i miss the feeling of belonging to someone but in all honesty, naiinip talaga ako. i love the feeling and being in love, pero pag anjan na, kusang tumitiklop ung security and defense mechanism ko, lalo akong nagiging manhid sa mga taong nagpaparamdam saken. either deep inside ayaw ko sa kanila, or natatakot akong maging part ng relationship na alam kong di ko pa mabibigay ung at least 50% ng nararamdaman nila.

confusing, right? ewan ko ba. nagiinarte ako na hindi dapat. pero hirap kalaban ng sarili kase. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT, AND I'M NOT EVEN SURE IF I WILL STAY WANTING IT WHEN I DO FIND IT.

tangang problem pero the most difficult that i have to deal with so far. bukas ko na i-check kung ano tong pinagsususulat ko, for the mean time, this will stay.

j

pics pics!

2010-10-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

The Only Exception

2010-10-18T22:18:00.001-07:00

Out of boredom and the feeling of sleepiness, a song got stuck in my head.

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

One Sunday

2010-10-17T17:29:00.001-07:00

watched RED yesterday with a friend and surprisingly enough, i had fun. it was actually the first time that i went and watched a movie with someone. the fun part came as a surprise as i am already accustomed to watching movies on my own. it was a change in a nice way, though i myself am not sure of what will happen in the coming days.

at this point, aside from being underestimated, i am also undecided. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I REALLY WANT. so there.

Updates! Updates!

2010-10-12T18:10:00.001-07:00

September has come and gone, October is nearing its end. Oh how time flies.

Just a few updates:

One of my friends is pregnant.
One of my friends just got accepted and is currently training in the same company I am in.
One of my friends will be celebrating her birthday and we are currently planning a surprise for her.
I am currently hooked to business.
I am still looking for anything romantic, unfortunately, none of those interested interests me.. haha!

I became part of the Quality Analytics team. this would mean more math, excel, and logical thinking for me.. bummer.. In a sense, this would do me a world of good, plus somehow, it will help me overcome my stupidity when dealing with numbers. I AM NOT COMPLAINING, this is just an outlet that i created since i would be shifted out of my usual comfort zone. Call me lazy, whatever. :)

Pictures are to follow. At the moment, I am in the office, and resources are quite limited.

joanne

2010-08-22T03:01:00.000-07:00

here is a glimpse of what had happened these past few months. wish there were more pictures but as it is, i don't have a working camera, and i don't have any newer pictures.

family dinner:

daraitan adventure:

bohol getaway:

Stress

2010-07-23T00:42:00.001-07:00

The QBR for one of the accounts that I am handling was done. Technically speaking, I did well (or maybe that was just them saying it because ??? i don't know..), but i knew it did not go well as planned. It would mean a lot of work again just to bring up the statistics of the team for it to make the agents' performances acceptable. Either way, this is a very critical time for me still. Oh well.

On another note, what I'm looking forward to is the Daraitan adventure. I'll try to do rappel and see where my endurance will take me. It will be a fun trek (i hope!) and hopefully, I would get to meet some new people (hmm.. i sense a hidden agenda <wink!>).

Rappeling and Basic Mountaineering Course by Piknikers Mountaineers

2010-07-12T21:45:00.001-07:00

Will be attending a Free BMC and Rappelling course meeting this Saturday. I guess, this is really it. I will finally be a mountaineer. As far as I know, BMC or Basic Mountaineering Course will teach me all the basics of climbing mountains.

This is going to be fun. I just hope it won't eat too much of my finances as I am broke (for the hundredth time.. haha!) again. :)

Looking forward to learning lots.

Restless

2010-07-08T18:28:00.001-07:00

I hate this feeling.

I should have been refreshed from a 4 day vacation but why am I feeling this low? I should be feeling pressured and stressed right now since QBR is fast approaching but why am I feeling so lazy and easy go lucky?

A View From The Top - Pico de Loro, 6/26/10

2010-06-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

1 - 2 - 3 - 4

2010-06-24T18:10:00.001-07:00

It's been a while since i posted a song lyrics here. So far, i have this compilation in the office courtesy of excel. I haven't quite figured out how to link a particular MP3 file without it being too big of a file (i now have over 70 song lyrics!), all of which are somehow my favorites. Here's one song lyrics with a very catchy tune and wordings when you listen to it. 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 by the Plain White Ts. :)
1-2-1-2-3-4
Give me more loving than I've ever had
Make me feel better when I'm feeling sad
Tell me I'm special even though I know I'm not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely getting mad
I'm so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
Its as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There's only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words
That's what I'll do
(I love you) I love you
Give me more loving from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
You're the best that I've had
And I'm so glad I found you
I love being around you
You make it easy
It's easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
There's only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words
That's what I'll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
You make it easy
It's easy as 1 2 1 2 3 4
There's only one thing
To Do
Three words
For you
(I love you) I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words
That's what I'll do
(I love you) I love you
(I love you) I love you
1-2-3-4
I love you
(I love you) I love you

Travel Fun

2010-06-23T16:46:00.001-07:00

When i was a kid, i often enjoy long trips going somewhere. Regardless of where it is, how long the stay was, I see to it that I get to have the window seat so I can enjoy the scenery.

Now that I am grown up (but still a child at heart), I still have the same passion for travelling. I don't have the luxury of time and money to do so, but I do so whenever I can. I have 2 planned activities that are lined up.

This coming saturday, I will be joining a group of mountaineers in climbing Pico de Loro. This will be the second mountain that I will be climb, the first being Mt. Manabu. I am now feeling the same excitement that I felt when we were about to climb Manabu. I felt excitement, intensified, and energized. Somehow, a good nature trip does wonders for me. Here is the itenerary that they have prepared:

0330 Registration at Mcdonalds El Pueblo, Ortigas
0400 ETD to Mt. Pico de Loro
0700 ETA DENR / jump-off point
0800 Start trek. Note that jump-off point is 10 minutes' walk away from DENR
0845 ETA rest station, Basecamp 1
1200 ETA summit, lunch
0100 start descent to Magnetic Hill
0600 ETA jump-off point.
1630 ETD to Manila
1930 ETA Manila

Next stop would be our trip to Bohol and Cebu. I was lucky enough to be informed by my office friend, Rosa, that there was a seat sale from PAL. So, tagging my friends along, we will all be spending 3 days on both locations. Our iteneraries are as follows:

Day 1 - flight to Bohol, city tour for me and Rosa and her brother. In the afternoon, my friends will be arriving as well, we will be checking in on a hotel where we will lounge and swim, and laugh, and gossip all we want.
Day 2 - Danao. This is where we will be doing some adventure activities such as zip line and bungee jump.
Day 3 - Cebu city tour and flight back home.

I am anticipating a not-so-relaxing vacation, but this will also be the first time that I will be riding a plane, so there.

FUN FUN FUN!!!

A Desperate Move

2010-06-22T01:48:00.000-07:00

all things considered, i consider myself a nice person. i don't harm anybody, i see to it that i never step on anybody just to get things to turn to my advantage. i was once played a fool by a group of people before, but that was all behind me. i was able to move on and put the past behind me. a recent event however, made me laugh so hard it hurt.

below is a conversation that i did not expect, much less the person involved. please take into consideration that after 5 years of being in a relationship with the same person, i knew right away who i was talking to.

legend:
ckmm20 - ako (joanne)
babolface20/ mj dirdams - roshel gutierrez pretending to be mj

if i had one regret, that would be was when i ignored her friend request in fb. had i approved it, then the account would have been tagged as well. enjoy!

(5:39:33 AM) babolface20: nabanggit ni seph na sabi mo "aakyat daw kayo ah/
(5:39:44 AM) babolface20: tinatanong tuloy nya ako kung naguusap tayo
(6:30:03 AM) m.j dirdams: hi
(6:30:45 AM) m.j dirdams: nagkachat kc kami ni seph
(6:30:57 AM) m.j dirdams: nasabi nya na nabanggit mong "akyat kayo ha"
(6:30:59 AM) m.j dirdams: ;)
(6:32:27 AM) m.j dirdams: may pasok ka ba?
(6:34:56 AM) m.j dirdams: di ka naman sumasagot
(6:34:00 AM) ckmm20: ano ba gusto mong marinig?
(6:35:38 AM) m.j dirdams: bakit nasabi mo kay seph yun
(6:35:56 AM) m.j dirdams: :)
(6:36:46 AM) m.j dirdams: how are you?
(6:37:21 AM) m.j dirdams: kylan ba tayo huling nakapagusap or chat ng maayos
(6:37:26 AM) m.j dirdams: it's been a while
(6:37:45 AM) m.j dirdams: just let me know if you don't want to chat with me
(6:37:31 AM) ckmm20: hindi lang ikaw ung pwede kong tukuyin kay cef
(6:37:48 AM) ckmm20: huli tayong nagchat or nagusap was before tayo naghiwalay
(6:38:09 AM) ckmm20: and you should know the obvious
(6:39:58 AM) m.j dirdams: inaadd nga kita sa facebook ayaw mo nman
(6:40:05 AM) m.j dirdams: tapos na yun
(6:40:20 AM) m.j dirdams: pinapaadd ka kc ni Roshel dahil friends naman nya mga ex nya
(6:39:17 AM) ckmm20: pinapaadd ka kc ni Roshel dahil friends naman nya mga ex nya
(6:41:44 AM) m.j dirdams: yes
(6:42:10 AM) m.j dirdams: saka more than 1 year na yung nangyari
(6:43:34 AM) m.j dirdams: she asked me yesterday kung nagkausap tayo sa YM kc may nagbanggit sa kanya na taga QA.
(6:44:09 AM) m.j dirdams: anyway, nagulat lang ako at nagsabi ni seph ng ganun
(6:44:18 AM) m.j dirdams: i'm still the same mj na kilala mo
(6:45:16 AM) m.j dirdams: laki na kaya ng inaanak mo :)
(6:44:53 AM) ckmm20: i am not sure kung anong laro tong gusto mong mangyari, so sure, i'll play along. a few conditions will apply
(6:45:30 AM) m.j dirdams: what play?
(6:45:31 AM) ckmm20: una - don't dare na magbanggit ka ng QA. if u think for a second na kayo ang kakampihan ng family ko, u better think again
(6:45:37 AM) m.j dirdams: conditions like what
(6:46:13 AM) ckmm20: ung inaanak ko, i am very much updated, di nyo kelangan na i-update ako. merong gumagawa nun para saken
(6:46:35 AM) m.j dirdams: i mean ok lang naman malaman ni Roshel dahil me tiwala nman sya gusto lang nya alam nya. sino naguupdate sayo si ate?
(6:46:45 AM) ckmm20: at kung ikaw man c mj, maybe i do, maybe i don't
(6:46:51 AM) ckmm20: start coming out clean
(6:47:03 AM) ckmm20: walang napapala kung magsissinungaling kayo the second time
(6:47:28 AM) ckmm20: i might have been fooled once by the whole perimeter team, pero, i have nothing to lose now
(6:47:39 AM) m.j dirdams: i just followed my heart at kung san ako masaya pero napagsisihan kona yung nagawa ko sayo
(6:47:54 AM) ckmm20: sa tingin nyo ba, maa-appease ng chat ung ginawa nyo?
(6:48:00 AM) ckmm20: di ako kasing babaw nyo
(6:48:37 AM) ckmm20: kung masaya ka sa relationship nyo, don;t waste it chatting with me
(6:48:44 AM) m.j dirdams: it's very obvious na galit ka pa
(6:48:52 AM) ckmm20: wala na akong paki kung nagsisisi ka or what
(6:49:02 AM) ckmm20: hindi maaalis un
(6:49:07 AM) ckmm20: or kayo for that matter
(6:49:10 AM) m.j dirdams: chinat kita kc nga nagtanong si Roshel at isa lang nasa list nya si Sherlie
(6:49:38 AM) m.j dirdams: anyway, di naman sinabi kung sino nagsabi but wala akong matandaan na chinat kita or nagchat tayo 1 or 2 months ago
(6:49:55 AM) m.j dirdams: ngayon lang i even asked for your YM pa nga
(6:56:44 AM) m.j dirdams: isa lang nasa YM ni Roshel si Sherlie. Di ako nagbibintang pero bat nya sasabihin sa gf ko na naguusap tayo. kaya kinausap kita dahil wala akong matandaang nagkausap tayo sa YM
(6:57:22 AM) m.j dirdams: mag2 years na kami ni Roshel and she mentioned dun sa QA na we are engaged
(6:57:26 AM) m.j dirdams: tapos binanggit yun
(6:57:52 AM) m.j dirdams: anyway, kung galit ka pa rin sana mawala na yan. youknow how sorry i am
(6:58:32 AM) m.j dirdams: i really love her and i can't live without my miel
(6:58:57 AM) m.j dirdams: ayoko lang nakakarinig or nagtatanong ng ganun lalot hindi totoo
(7:03:52 AM) ckmm20: it's funny, am talking to sherlie right now and nagulat cia
(7:04:14 AM) ckmm20: anyway, kung ung point mo lang is kung ikaw ung tinukoy ko kay cef, ndi ikaw un
(7:04:34 AM) ckmm20: unless nagka-amnesia ka, na di mo maalala kung nagkachat man tayo or what
(7:08:43 AM) m.j dirdams: kailan tayo nagchat khit ipakita mo to kay Shirlie
(7:08:49 AM) m.j dirdams: so sya ba nagsabi kay Roshel
(7:09:19 AM) m.j dirdams: forward to me what we have discussed
(7:11:18 AM) ckmm20: ano bang sinabi, at anong discussion? out of the blue, hahanapan mo ko ng kung ano ano
(7:11:54 AM) m.j dirdams: ask Shirlie ayoko lang sya tanungin ng diretso dahil nakakatawa
(7:12:03 AM) m.j dirdams: di ko ipagpapalit si Roshel kahit kanino
(7:12:13 AM) m.j dirdams: we are getting married and ayoko na ng chismis
(7:12:21 AM) ckmm20: alam mo Roshel, kung nagaaway kayo, wag nyo ako idamay
(7:12:57 AM) m.j dirdams: Roshel?
(7:13:21 AM) m.j dirdams: tigilan mo kami at wag ng guluhin
(7:13:24 AM) ckmm20: nananahimik ako. alam ko kung nagsisinungaling ang tao sakin, hindi ako tanga
(7:13:37 AM) m.j dirdams: sabihan mo si Shirlie
(7:13:48 AM) ckmm20: kung gusto nyo ng pagaawayan, madami jan, wag nyo ako isali
(7:14:06 AM) ckmm20: enough na ung ginawa nyo sakin before, di ako ung tipong nagngugugulo for the sake of it
(7:14:20 AM) ckmm20: kung ikakasal na kayo, well and good
(7:14:28 AM) ckmm20: congratulations in advance
(7:14:36 AM) m.j dirdams: and you are invited
(7:14:41 AM) m.j dirdams: tigilan na lang yung chismis
(7:14:50 AM) ckmm20: kung kelangan mo ng assurance - ayan, "i am so happy for you!"
(7:14:56 AM) m.j dirdams: ichat ko din si Shirlie
(7:15:06 AM) ckmm20: go, kung san ka masaya
(7:15:12 AM) m.j dirdams: delete me on your list
(7:15:15 AM) m.j dirdams: block me
(7:16:25 AM) ckmm20: u know what, di ko cguro buburahin, this is somewhat like a medal
(7:16:48 AM) ckmm20: biruin mo, ikakasal na, pero insecured enough para mandamay ng wala naman paki sa kanila
(7:17:04 AM) ckmm20: kakatawa ka

Time Out

2010-06-20T05:28:00.000-07:00

I was reading my earlier post and somehow felt as if it was kind of angry. To clarify a few things, it has not nothing to do with vengeance. I am merely speaking whatever it is in my heart now.

On another note, today is father's day. i greeted someone else's dad but have not greeted my own. i don't have his contact number nor my half sister's. the only means of greeting him is through my half sister's fb account. so much for being a pathetic greeter.. haha! Maybe i'll talk about my daddy issues soon, or maybe not. I have too much laziness on my plate to care anyway.

Never Again

2010-06-19T22:40:00.000-07:00

That will be the last time that you will order me around. I can understand that you are upset because of all the bullshit that is happening to you right now, but i will never understand why it will be my fault for making it happen. I made my point, yes, and that person deserves it.

Too bad. I was beginning to think that you changed for the better. Looks like it was the otherwise. What they call "circumstances change, but the people doesn't" is true. You are the same cut from the old shell that was from before. You don't care if someone was treated badly, wag lang mapahiya.

The deleted post will definitely find its way back to this blog. Being a nice person that i am, I'll just wait for the right time. Never again will i be made as if to feel like trash just because I made a decision to expose someone who thought and made me a fool. Never again will i trust someone who would play me as if i am the same naive person from before.

As they constantly say in facebook, when I'm good, I'm very good. But when I'm bad, I'm even better. The fates is playing their part, and I will ride along and enjoy the view as it goes.

summer

2010-06-14T00:50:00.000-07:00

i initially posted 2 pictures from our team building. we went to cagbalite, quezon. a scenic and quiet paradise for those who want to get away from it all. the water so clear, the temperature just right, it was the perfect way to relax. here are some of the pictures from the place..

woah!

2010-06-13T06:38:00.000-07:00

i came, i saw, i conquered - Mt Manabu - April 17, 2010

2010-04-18T14:04:00.000-07:00

movies

2010-03-02T02:57:00.000-08:00

i watched a movie today. yes, on my own. i think this is the second movie that i watched on my own. good progress, just the same, inviting someone or somebody sometimes ruin my plan. here are the movies that i was able to watch for 2010.

avatar
paano na kaya?
percy jackson and the lightning thief
alice in wonderland
miss you like crazy

reading my list, it's not really a list after all. soon, more movies will be added, by then, i can consider it a list. :)

whew!

2010-02-23T02:33:00.000-08:00

this is the first time that i visited my blog. the last entry that i posted was october of 2009. call it lazy, because there ain't no other reason. :)

a lot has happened (and i mean a lot!). from xmas parties, hospitalization, addiction to one piece and john lloyd cruz, to moving to a different account, meeting new friends, and adventures that even i had no idea of happening.

i'll leave this as is for now, with a promise that i will be visiting and posting more of whatever soon. :)

samu't sari

2009-10-09T03:10:00.000-07:00

mini reunion

happy birthday jak!

baha, courtesy of typhoon ondoy

me and rney trying to salvage a few things from the apartment

done!

2009-08-29T04:24:00.000-07:00

as they say, better post it late than never at all! :)

meaning daw!

2009-08-13T02:01:00.000-07:00

i recently posted a design for my upcoming tattoo. surprisingly enough, may nag-comment.. hehe.. here are my thoughts kung bakit un ung napili ko:

it's not just the skull, it's more of a pirate logo. pirates kasi are free. they can do anything, good or bad. walang pretentions, walang pakialam sa iba. they can do anything without thinking of the consequences. kung, maiisip man, walang sisihan. it's the choices that they made, they have to live with and by it.

as for the pirate logo itself, addict ako sa one piece. believe it or not, the said anime has a lot of good values and morals in it. it reminds us everytime that there is a kid inside and once in a while we have to let go and be ourselves.

ung tribal, eto ung for design purposes lang. corny naman kasi kung ung pirate logo lang.. hehe.. kelangan may art kasi sa lower back cia ilalagay.

cguro nga, i'm pushing myself too far, having a second tattoo, and ehem.. i have committed a lot of things that i can't really consider something to be proud of. kung meron man, un ay dahil masaya ako. i guess the time really came to be selfish. bahala na.. :)

make me bad/ between days

2009-08-13T01:58:00.000-07:00

i love this song. thanks 2phe, for introducing the new wave genre.. i love the combination of voices. sooooooooooo sexy.. haha!

addiction

2009-08-05T03:44:00.000-07:00

since the planned Ilocos trip would not push through, i am contemplating between 2 things. to get a tattoo and to buy a videoke equipment from Raon. this coming rest day, i am determined to stop by tinta tattoo shop to ask for a quotation. budget ~ let's say 2k. if i am able to get it for that low price, i will definitely go for it. next stop, raon. this trip could probably wait until september. after all, there are a lot of plans for the coming weekends that i am looking forward to. anyway, here is a glimpse of what my lower back is looking forward to.. thank you balong for making my design possible.. haha!

gluttony

2009-07-26T04:25:00.000-07:00

i just got curious about the puppet. it was pink, and cute, and adorable, and from curiousity, it paved way into gluttony. yes, you read it right. gluttony is the word. a few good friends from work went to SM Megamall and ate in Camayan. the food was great, and there were a LOT of food (you can say that it was expected as it was an eat all you can buffet!). anyway, i think the pictures were taken after the meal. expect bulging stomachs please. :)

transformers

2009-07-16T02:27:00.000-07:00

we got to watch the movie. it was cool as was given as comments by the people who first watched it. liked the movie, not the cinema. we went to galleria to try the movie house but got disappointed. oh well, we'll try eastwood's ultra 7 this weekend..

i thought we watched transformers?! oh, yeah, we got to see the last full show, unfortunately, this is the only poster that had the proper lighting at the time.. haha!

insomia

2009-07-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

no. it's not the song. i can't sleep.. again.. darn it!

it is now 9:00PM and my shift starts at 1AM. if i don't get to sleep now, i probably would in the office. which is not a good thing considering that there are 8 evaluations to be post assessed by yours truly. just thinking about it is already exhausting.. whew..

on another note, i am torn between finding the right cabinet and boxing tomorrow. plus i have to get my groceries tomorrow as well. a bit busy considering that there might be (wishful thinking..) no overtime tomorrow. i am also thinking of just swapping my rest day instead of filing one day as a sick leave..

i am currently disorganized. there are a lot of pending items to blog. busy busy busy...

it's been a while

2009-07-04T20:20:00.000-07:00

a few updates as to how i spent the days before. i have been quite busy due to tremendous amount of workload.

* looked for a decent enough cabinet with mirror
* spent more than 4 hours of overtime at work (take note, this is starting to be of a regular habit)
* did a one piece marathon
* became addicted to rockband unplugged
* became stressed with my super slow internet at home
* became more stressed with my super slow laptop
* was able to solve the problem for super slow laptop (thanks joseph!)
* considered adding a tattoo for my lower back but is contemplating a good design (hate that someone copied me)
* missed being in love (inggitera kasi josu is married and is expecting a baby girl.. haha!)

will finally watch transformers but is looking forward to watching UP this august

chillax

2009-06-22T02:43:00.000-07:00

just another boring day.

i am currently at home on a monday. i'm supposed to be at the office but i got home really late. spent more than 24 hours at the office, starting from 2am sunday. i think i left 2am monday.

i should get a loyalty award for dedication or something. :)

one saturday

2009-06-14T03:51:00.000-07:00

my friend's mom passed away and was cremated last June 13. we felt happy and sad. sad because tita was always nice to us and deserves a longer life. happy because of the maturity we saw in vine. good to know that she remained strong even in the midst of a crisis.

so when we left the chapel to meet up with rney, we went to Megamall. we started noticing a few youngsters in costumes and i remembered that it was the toy con held in megatrade hall.

i never realized that Gaara was appealing, anyway, visit my multiply site for more..

pityur pityurs

2009-06-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

for those interested in looking at the pictures when we had our team building, you may all visit my multiply site, http://babing20.multiply.com

enjoy!

happy feet

2009-06-10T07:00:00.000-07:00

another funny line

2009-06-10T04:06:00.000-07:00

i happen to chat with a very good friend today. i was told a good enough story with the funniest line ever. ready to hear what it is?

I HAVE A SUICIDAL TENDENCY

harhar.. thinking about it alone has me rolling in laughter. would you believe that this was the excuse they used to justify the all the cheating and lying. i already thought that the idea that i might confront the girl is too much, meron pa palang iba.. i was frankly disappointed because i was supposed to blog about our recent team building. this can't wait, i just have to share it..

anyway, i am open to communication. if either of them are not so afraid because i might kill myself in knowing the truth, then they can go ahead and be brave enough to talk to me. i know for sure that they have the wits to figure it out. kung hindi naman, let me be clear on one thing:

ANG SWERTE NYO NAMAN KUNG KAYO DAHILAN IF I DO INTEND TO COMMIT SUICIDE

paningit lang

2009-06-09T02:02:00.000-07:00

i kinda like this video.. so full of hate.. haha! don't get me wrong. i just like it for it's tempo..

team building

2009-06-08T21:09:00.000-07:00

just got back from our team building, had a lot of fun even though it rained the whole time. enjoyed it so that it was also the first time that my jaw and my heart ached for laughing so hard. hope we'll have a repeat. love u guys!

p.s.
will upload the pictures probably tomorrow or the next day.

Back to School

2009-06-01T11:06:00.001-07:00

Jak is getting her Masteral. Yipee!

i have yet to upload the pictures, but one thing is for sure, we are so proud of our nakama. She is going to pursue her studies and is going a notch higher. She will be taking up her Masteral in Information Technology. At the moment, she is leaning more into specializing in Networking.

OMG! This personal growth will really be good for her. More or less, this will open new windows and doors of opportunities for her (who knows, she might meet Mr. Right in one of her soon to be classrooms.. haha!)

I am so envious. I'll see how it will work out for her, if it would not be too much for me, (i am planning to buy my own place next year) then i will try my best to study as well.

Good for you Jak! KUDOS!

wala lang

2009-06-01T05:40:00.001-07:00

Everytime I see you
My life turns upside down
Tried so hard to find out
How to make you come back

no particular reason, just listened to this song, felt nothing out of the ordinary..

buti na lang..

new look

2009-05-28T04:04:00.000-07:00

pink must be my subconscious' favorite color. i also think it is high time that i change my blog's looks. i may be no money-generator, still i like the idea of having an online diary.

i soon will be posting pictures of my friends. one left the sanctity of single blessedness but we know she is happy with her soon to be baby..

will sure post soon.

angels and demons

2009-05-24T02:04:00.000-07:00

frankly, i was disappointed. just like all the other movies that originated from a book, the movie version was too squeezed in on a very limited time frame, making some of the important details of the book missing. for those who haven't watched the movie yet, do not read this. here are some of the important points missing on the movie:

*maximillian kohler was not given any role on the movie
*leonardo vetra, friend of the late pope, and father of vittoria vetra was supposed to die with the Illuminati emblem. he was also killed because of the antimatter.
*it was maximillan who called robert langdon.
*robert was brought to CERN first to be educated with the antimatter. this is also where he first met vittoria.
*the chief of the vatican guard immediately hated vittoria because her outfit was not appropriate
*story about the camerlegno was not published

i could go on and on about the things that were missed. i could say that i paid extra to hang out with my friends.

kapitan sino

2009-05-20T19:50:00.000-07:00

being a bob ong fanatic, i see to it that i collect his works. i admire the way he writes and his style. he is brutally frank but can be forgiven because there are a lot of truth in it. anyway, here is the latest addition, (i feel lucky because i was the third person to buy it and there were only 20 copies on National Bookstore - Eastwood), Kapitan Sino..

oh, and i bought an archie comic and confessions of a shopaholic too!

vacay

2009-05-19T02:48:00.000-07:00

i wanna go on vacation.. to stop thinking.. to at least keep my mind off things.. the question is, where?

hirap magdecide. i think there is a plan to go to biak na bato by the end of the month, so at least, there is something to look forward to..

best wishes

2009-05-16T01:09:00.000-07:00

just got home from las pinas. we attended my cousin's wedding yesterday at the Sto. Nino parish church. though the preparations were rushed and not very organized, at the end of the day, what matters the most is that they still ended in each others arms.

hold it!

i can say that love is there to stay for them. i am wishing them all the love and blessings in the world. though i was not able to know all my cousins that well, i am happy to know that everyone else still matters, and through tough times, we still wish each other all the best.

kuya mike and ate nina, again, congratulations and best wishes!

p.s

pictures will follow.. :)

underestimated

2009-05-14T00:28:00.000-07:00

how did the line go? "leave her out of this" ba or "she has nothing to do with this", ingat sa pag-blog..

i can't believe you are thinking that i would stoop that low. once again, i was underestimated by someone who mattered the most in my life before.

do you honestly think that i would send a hate mail, ask for a confrontation, or even send somebody to warn her? HA! i am finding it funny all of a sudden. ang pathetic. ciempre, ako si tanga na naman, apektado..

come on! i was the one left hanging. sure i asked for closure but the circumstances are different now. "it just happened" does not happen in a short span of 3 months. let alone that both of you just came out of a commitment.

sabi nga nila, believe in karma. ako, i am a firm believer, and i had my taste already. una- unahan lang talaga cguro.

nga pala, to those who does not know the meaning, here it is:
underestimated : to place too low a value on

sa mga nakakaintindi, this meaning does not necessary mean that one would lower her values and standards to prove that they are underestimated. it is a matter of how one should be able to stand up to what others think one's limits are

tsk..

2009-05-12T02:32:00.000-07:00

ganun ba talaga ako kabilis palitan..

now i am really wondering kung ginawa mo lang dahilan yang spark and all the stupid alibis na binigay mo before. how long has it been going on?

as much as i would like to wish you happiness, i just can't find it anywhere in my heart. i lost everything, my best friend and all.

how i wish you'd hurt real bad, that you never find happiness or yourself at all.

words of wisdom

2009-05-08T04:32:00.000-07:00

"if we can only stop comparing ourselves with others, I believe that we'll be happier and more at peace within"
excerpt from "you can make your life beautiful" from Bo Sanchez

i was given the chance to read this book by one of my good friend. at first, i was reluctant since the title has this "religious" flavor on it. surprisingly enough, i read through the first page and found out that it did have this certain flavor but it is also something that shouts "everything you read is true and did happen".

all i know about Bo Sanchez is that he is a preacher. i have an idea that he is from a catholic church but again, i do not know anything, period. i liked the book. no questions. i like the way he relates the story of life as well as his wisdom.

it is indeed true that we will never be happy unless we stop comparing. be contented, if not, go for what we think is best for us. we do not need a comparison just so we can achieve something. let us not be demotivated just because we think we are better than others but are not compensated enough. everything has a reason. instead, let us be more driven and show them what we are made of.

ho hum..

2009-05-05T03:53:00.000-07:00

spent 4 additional effing hours in the office..

gave dora and tuting a bath..

slept for 5 hours or so..

had an idea that i want to study again..

trashed the idea as i am still paying off some debts..

not so looking forwad to my 3 days off..

trying to do "inarte" because i am broke..

cooked hotdog with tomato sauce..

trying to do "panggap" in looking for schools.. see reason above..

time to get moving, else i will be late again..

help

2009-05-03T02:06:00.000-07:00

my kittens are in big trouble.

i am not sure what happened but dora and tuting has this wound in their tongue. it prevents them from eating and drinking and they are salivating like crazy. worst part is it had to happen at a time when i don't have any money.

i am so worried that i even try to wipe their mouth once in a while. i gave up one of my pillows so they could lie there. they are so weak and i am hoping they would get well soon. both of them are the most "makulit" and they are the sort of favorites here.

if anybody know of a safe and trusted medicine, please let me know. i can't stand seeing my babies suffer..

"closure"

2009-04-29T04:35:00.000-07:00

i finally had the courage to talk to him.

i opened up my heart once more, trying to accept the fact that everything is really over.

i am confused as to why i cannot be consistent enough to hate someone who hurt me deeply. i gave him all his things back, including the gifts that he gave me (at least those i have kept). unfortunately, all the things are still packed in our living room, as he promised to take it the next day.

he is no longer the same mj that I knew, even way back in our training days. i cannot find the logic as to why he lost himself and in the process, found a different personality that kicked me out of his life.

this time, it's for real. no more lies, no more denials, no more acting as if it does not hurt, because it does. and it hurts like hell.

the notebook

2009-04-26T04:06:00.000-07:00

i have always loved the novel "the notebook". i saw it first in the movie and somehow i got intrigued with the book itself. i am always a fanatic of the book version because it is not rushed, it is more detailed than in the movies.

i happen to stumble upon my copy of the said novel. i read it while i was passing time in Las Pinas, and i found a very suitable part for myself. it goes like this..

No matter what I choose, I have to live with it. Forever. I have to be able to go forward and not look back anymore.

this was from the part that Noah and Allie were talking. Noah pleading that Allie stay with him, and Allie, brokenhearted by who to choose, Lon, who she was engaged with or Noah, who she still loves even after 14 years of separation.

i guess even if the whole scenario does not fit mine, still i like the idea of standing up with your decisions. no regrets and looking back. just look forward to each day that will come, with all the hope and faith of getting whatever it is that i am aiming for.

on WoRD

2009-04-23T14:16:00.000-07:00

hate to
but have to

LSS

2009-04-23T03:51:00.000-07:00

All cried out

[allure]
All alone on a sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside Im slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Dont you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
cause Im tired of your lie
All I needed was a simple hello
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry
(I) I gave you my love in vain
Now Im all cried out, over you.

[112]
Cryin over you, yeah

Never wanted to see things your way,
Had to go astray
For why was I such a fool (why was I such a fool)
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home,
How could I be so wrong?

[allure]
Leaving me all alone
Dont you know my tears will cause an inferno
Romance often fades
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected (so sorry baby)
Apology not accepted
Add it to the broken hearts youve collected

(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
And you

[112]
You left me so confused

[allure]
Now Im all cried out
Now Im all cried out
Over you

tired

2009-04-21T04:18:00.000-07:00

just spent the afternoon playing badminton with the usual crowd.. produced so much sweat that up until now, my shirt and jogging pants are still wet. good thing we did not push through the plan of going to the mall.

jak is planning to get a plan from sun. she's planning to get the 3 phone bundle for P999 and somehow, she got us convinced to go along. that would mean 3 phones for me. i am thinking of giving the phone to my mom but knowing my brother, he'll just take it away as well.

so much for the day, if i have enough money left, i might even box tomorrow.. haha.. :)

as i go along...

2009-04-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

another form of faith.. from now on, no more looking back, keep moving forward!

sigh

2009-04-15T05:02:00.000-07:00

just got home.

it's my first day of being back into fitness. i had my first session after almost a month without an exercise and it seems as if i produced a bucket full of sweat..

kah.. kah..

anyway, the family fun day is on friday, Parokya ni Edgar will be playing, so i have something to look forward to. another thing is that the event will be on a resort, so swimming will definitely be there.

no plans of buying a new swim suit like my officemates. need to save up for the bills.

wala lang.. :)

go figure

2009-04-12T02:26:00.000-07:00

“If only. Those must be the two saddest words in the world.”

i have come to another realization that i am still in a world of denial. i refuse to deal with some facts of life that made a whole lot of difference with mine. i lost a lot of things and ideals that i have been taking care of ever since i can remember. i even lost my faith into something that would make up for my future.

if only. i could count a lot of if onlys' that i can think of..

- if only i had not applied to this company
- if only i had not befriend you
- if only i had not persisted
- if only i had not been patient
- if only i did not give in
- if only i had not given anything
- if only i had not been too friendly
- if only i had not been too nice
- if only i had not been too patient
- if only i had not given the best
- if only i had not given my all
- if only i had chosen someone else
- if only i had thought that hurting someone for my own happiness is wrong
- if only i had left before leaving my roots too deep
- if only i had left more than enough for myself
- if only i had been too selfish to think of others
- if only i have been too vocal about my feelings
- if only i had not fallen for someone who became too selfish
- if only had i not been too naive to think that everything is perfect

i can think of a hundred more "if only". again, i know i am too slow. could be the effect of being numb. it hurts occasionally, and i know i don't have any right to since time passed me by. more or less, there is not much future to look forward to, just the present while i take it as it is. :(

and God made the sun.. and the sand.. and the sea

2009-04-09T19:00:00.000-07:00

God is so wonderful to have created a lot of beautiful things. i realized that you don't have to go very far to appreciate such. Here are some pictures of how beautiful Puerto Galera is..